The heartbeat at the tip of the tongue (舌尖上的心跳) Chapter 58

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The Ferris Wheel That Has Yet To Be Built

The tasting continued, and Food Association Chairman David appeared on the screen.

“Even though it’s delicious, the lack of saltiness still can’t be offset…… it’s really such a pity……”

David shook his head regretfully.

Even though the other judges acknowledged the standard of this seafood stewed rice, they simultaneously pointed out that the lack of balance in the taste was unable to bring about a sense of satisfaction.

Viktor only got 7 points for this dish, and fell from his original first place.

The audience couldn’t help heaving a sigh, feeling sorry for him.

Annalise walked to Viktor and comforted him: “It’s alright, Viktor, the competition is still ongoing, no one knows what the next round of competitions will be about. Anything is possible!”

Viktor’s smile lacked its previous brightness, the expression of holding his tears back was moving.

Annalise went to Goto Nozomi, and clapped saying: “Your strategy worked, Viktor’s ranking dropped to third place.”

“This kind of thing was bound to happen sooner or later.” Goto Nozomi replied calmly.

The audience didn’t seem to understand the meaning behind Goto Nozomi’s words, Annalise put on a mischievous smile: “Oh? What thing are you referring to?”

“the aspirations of youth. Thinking that the world revolves around them, that they can do whatever they wish to.” Goto Nozomi’s expression didn’t even change.

The audience members showed different expressions like they were unable to understand why Goto Nozomi would carry such obvious hostility towards such a cute youth.

But Lin Ke Song wondered whether Jiang Qian Fan had possessed Goto Nozomi? The words were so straightforward that it made people ashamed.

But Annalise ended up clapping, her finger poking Goto Nozomi’s shoulder saying: “this is the kind of competitive atmosphere that we want! Only when there’s competition will there be sparks of inspirations, to let competitors make food that is moving!”

The awkward atmosphere finally got warmer. Annalise demonstrated her ability to control the scene and change the atmosphere.

“This is the end of today’s competition. Some were proud, while others were frustrated. I hope to remind everyone, that all success and glory is temporary because you haven’t reached the end. On the contrary, those who stand higher are in more danger, because you will be the target of everyone in the next round of competitions.”

This round of competition came to an end with these words of Annalise’s.

But Lin Ke Song understood that Annalise was reminding her. The highest places cannot beat the cold, what she will face after this is still unknown.

After the competition, Lin Ke Song and the other competitors left together.

When she got to the competitors’ waiting room, Lin Ke Song realised that Iris was seated on the sofa like she was waiting for someone.

Viktor ran over, and hugged her tightly, like returning to his family’s side meant that he no longer needed to act strong. It seemed that Viktor not only knew Iris, but was very close to her. The reason for Iris’ appearance in the audience was because of Viktor.

Iris patted his back, and looked towards Lin Ke Song.

That barbed throat feeling once again made Lin Ke Song feel uncomfortable.

Iris was her senior, in this industry, using a Chinese saying, she was an “arrogant lady within the heavens”. Lin Ke Song actually had the intentions to avoid her, but she didn’t think that she would actually call out to her.

“you should know that you were able to win Viktor this time was only because you were lucky ba?”

With these words, the competitors who were still in the waiting room simultaneously looked up.

Lin Ke Song didn’t know what to say on the spot.

The competitors who had yet to leave looked over like they were waiting for a good show.

“Why won’t you say anything?” Iris’ gaze was locked tightly on Lin Ke Song, like they were watching a jumping clown.

Bruce walked over, blocking Lin Ke Song from the front, and said to Iris: “the wins and losses have been decided. Chef Quentin, to be tangled in this issue as a senior, shows an absolutely lack of magnanimity.”

Iris tilted her face, her gaze seemed like it wanted to go around Bruce to return to Lin Ke Song: “Bruce, I was asking Lin Ke Song, not you.”

Lin Ke Song took a breath, and took a step to the side, standing beside Bruce, looking straight at Iris, calmed down her heart, and replied succinctly: “Chef Quentin, if I got the ingredients Viktor got, I would probably also choose to make seafood stewed rice. Because there was no oil, it would be impossible to make fried rice. Viktor’s defeat was because there wasn’t any salty seasoning, right ba?”

Iris looked coldly at Lin Ke Song, waiting for her to get to the point.

Viktor too turned to look at Lin Ke Song. It was obvious, that he felt that his loss to Lin Ke Song was due to his bad fortune.

“Viktor, do you remember what the prawns that Goto Nozomi gave you were placed in?”

“A plastic bag.”

“And what was in the bag?” Lin Ke Song asked.

After 2 seconds of being stunned, it was like Viktor was hit with something, his mouth opened, and was speechless.

The other competitors too reacted.

“of course Viktor knew that there was seawater in the bag. But do you think it’s possible to have enough salt from that seawater to stew the rice?” Iris was still in hot pursuit.

“Why wouldn’t it be possible? A thousand grams of seawater contains about 35 grams of salt. He could have stewed the rice while cooking the salt. And when cooking the salt, don’t put the whole bag of seawater in but pour little amounts in to cook. Even though there may not be enough time, at least he would have a chance to win, it’s only that he didn’t even try.”

Lin Ke Song walked to Viktor, and looked into his eyes seriously, “I want to ask Viktor instead, after taking the flour from the ingredients, what would you make using the remaining jam and eggs? Is it really berry stewed eggs?”

Viktor could not bear Lin Ke Song’s gaze, and turned his head.

Those playful gazes that were on Lin Ke Song had added degrees of appreciation and admiration.

Iris laughed lightly, leaned towards Lin Ke Song’s ear, and said in a volume of voice that only they would hear: “you think that these little schemes means that you have learned all the abilities from Jiang Qian Fan? You will never become him.”

“I have never wanted to become him.” Lin Ke Song kept a calm indifference to the other party, and answered calmly, “I am Lin Ke Song.”

Iris was stunned, then she laughed lightly.

“This is the way Jiang Qian Fan taught you? To comfort yourself if you can’t win? When the final results are revealed, do you really think that your success or failure will have nothing to do with Jiang Qian Fan’s reputation? Or, does he wish for you to continue being so naïve?”

Iris lifted the end of her lips, and jerked her chin at Viktor, the 2 of them left the waiting room.

Lin Ke Song stood at her place, rubbing her nose funnily.

She understood Jiang Qian Fan, the words on his lips, and the words of his heart had always been the same. She definitely will not have her confidence shaken due to a couple of sentences from Iris.

Maybe she really wasn’t a genius, but at least she wasn’t mediocre.

“You alright ba, Ke Song?” Bruce went to her, saw that she was in her thoughts, and was a little worried.

“I’m fine, I’m good! Good luck for the next round of competitions oh, Bruce!”

“Of course la!” Bruce gave a refreshing carefree smile.

When Lin Ke Song was getting ready to leave the hotel, she got a call from Jiang Qian Fan.

“Is the competition over already? I’ll come pick you up.”

Once that cool voice had warmth in it, it had a heavily thick sexiness.

Lin Ke Song’s heart skipped a beat, and when she thought of her appointment with Song Yi Ran, she could only say: “Song Yi Ran asked me out for lunch today…… it seems like he has something to discuss with me. So, I think……”

“Friends are important too. Go ba. I wish to eat the hay smoked eggs you made for dinner.”

“You know what I made for this competition?”

Lin Ke Song’s eyes lit up, didn’t Jiang Qian Fan not come for the competition?

“Of course I know. See you tonight.”

He knew? How did he know? Did someone tell him, or was he actually in a corner watching her silently without her noticing?

“Okay ah!”

Lin Ke Song originally thought that Jiang Qian Fan wouldn’t be happy, but he was a lot more generous than she thought!

Her ear was lifted by someone, Lin Ke Song turned around and bumped into Song Yi Ran.

“What’s wrong? After winning you’ve lost your sense of direction?” Song Yi Ran smirked, that smile still had the power to kill.

“I had a thrilling win alright! Who knows, maybe the next competition will be one from the heavens.”

Thinking about the words Iris had said, gave her heart more or less some discomfort. Her win was indeed due to luck. If Viktor didn’t take the flour but the liqueur, she pretty much wouldn’t have the chance of a surprise win.

“then do you know what it felt like for me to watch you compete?”

Song Yi Ran leaned towards her, she thought that she’d see a half-joking cunningness in his eyes, but she didn’t think that his eyes were as soft as the soft sand covering the bottom of a lake, her heart softened too.

“what did it feel like?”

“it was like I had invested all my money into stocks, and in one day gone through the bull market to the bear market, then turn back from the bear market to return to the bull market. Good thing I’m young and don’t have a weak heart.”

Song Yi Ran lifted his hand to clutch his chest, Lin Ke Song laughed along with him.

Song Yi Ran drove the car over and took off with Lin KE Song.

Across the street from the hotel, was a man with a cold and stern face holding a cane, his eyes were of indifference.

Mayer who was seated in the front passenger seat turned around and said: “Sir, Ms Lin has left.”

“Then let’s go back too ba.”

“…… Sir, I heard that the Song family wishes to sell the Audrey hotel.”

The Song Family should just be trying things out, without sufficient people and capital, they wouldn’t simply come to New York. That farce that happened on that birthday party, didn’t help put them in a good light or give them a good reputation in New York.

“And, Song Yi Ran rejected the marriage with the Chu family.” Mayer added.

Jiang Qian Fan clutched his fingers around the cane.

“does this imply that he already has enough capital to confront his brother?” Mayer tried asking, “if the Song family are planning to sell Audrey hotel, there is a high probability that there’s a problem with cash flow, and they wish to protect RuiHeng hotel back at home. Song Yi Fan will definitely invite new investors,  and since it’ll be so, should we……”

“We will definitely invest in the shares. Song Yi Ran will definitely not let this opportunity go, and will use another name to buy the shares, so as to not be detected by the Song Family.”

“You wish to dilute his shares?”

“En.”

“Is it because of Ke Song? Because she cares too much about Song Yi Ran?” Mayer asked uncertainly.

“You think that because Ke Song used to like Song Yi Ran, I want to deal with him?”

“Isn’t that so? In china, there’s a saying that goes, ‘when you kill 10 000 enemies, you lose 8 000 of your army’. When you dilute Song Yi Ran’s shares, what will you gain?”

Jiang Qian Fan turned his head slightly, sunlight along the car’s window landed on his shoulder, making it seem like there was a silent coldness in the calmness.

“I can resell the shares to Song Yi Ran at a higher price. He will definitely want it.” Jiang Qian Fan kept his cane, and leisurely put it back into the coat’s pocket, “this isn’t a war because of a woman. This is only necessary for Jiang Co. The Quentin family has been restless, they have been eyeing the place where I plan to build a Chinese food street. Furthermore, the Quentin family and mayor of New York have a relationship with money heavily involved, and they can also see the ambition that Song Family has to enter the American market, repeatedly asking Song Yi Fan at Song Yi Ran’s birthday party to stretch out an olive branch.”

“So sir…… you are worried that the Quentin and Song Family will join hands?”

“Yeah ah, if that situation really happens, I can only use reinforcements.”

“I understand, I will settle this discretely.”

“Thank you.”

The wind blew in through the car window, Lin Ke Song closed her eyes and felt a sense of freedom.

After leaving the tense competition grounds, she felt like she could lift off the ground.

“Hey! I’m hungry! What do we eat!” Lin Ke Song hit Song Yi Ran’s shoulder with her hand.

“Eat Mala soup ah.”

“Ha? What?” Lin Ke Song turned her face in suspicion.

When she saw the hint of laughter on Song Yi Ran’s lips clearly, she suddenly understood that this chap was teasing her again.

“eat fried chicken and fries.”

“have you had enough?” Lin Ke Song gave Song Yi Ran a push.

“I’m driving ah, violence to the driver is like suicide. Why, are you planning to perish together with me?”

Song Yi Ran turned and purposely got closer to her, Lin Ke Song looked forward with an unbothered look, but Song Yi Ran tried to push as far as he could, she could pretty much feel the other party’s breathing brushing past her.

“Be with me, or die with me?”

Song Yi Ran’s expression looked persistent and mad like it was going to shatter her world.

Lin Ke Song was suddenly fearful.

Until 2 seconds later, she suddenly remembered the lines of some serial drama.

And exhaled without a trace, Lin Ke Song stretched her hands out coldly, and pushed Song Yi Ran, “Drive your car ba!”

“Your ears were red.” Song Yi Ran grabbed the steering wheel with both hands, looked forward, and said calmly.

Lin Ke Song turned her face, until the car had driven further, and Song Yi Ran still didn’t say a thing about where they were going. Lin Ke Song simply shut her eyes, tilted her head and went to sleep. A

When she woke up later, she’d understand what Song Yi Ran was trying to do.

A short while later, Lin Ke Song rubbed her eyes and straightened up.

The harbour could be seen in this faraway place, the beach was at the edge, and the Ferris wheel could be seen.

Did Song Yi Ran go mad, and bring her for a ride on the Ferris wheel? But the madness this time was quite serious ah, this Ferris wheel wasn’t even built yet! Did he want to hang off it and swing?

The car had already stopped, and there was the fragrant smell of fried chicken and French fries.

“Awake? Eat ba.” Song Yi Ran pressed the paper package of fast food into Lin Ke Song’s arms.

“when did you buy this ah?”

Unbuckling the belt, Lin Ke Song sat up.

“When you were sleeping like a pig.” Song Yi Ran pinched her nose.

“Where is this ah?”

“Staten Island. This is New York’s least populous and remote administrative area. It was even the largest landfill before.”

Opening the door, Song Yi Ran walked out, carried the paper bag, and sat on the front of the car.

Lin Ke Song followed and sat next to him.

The warm wind carried the slight taste of the sea, the sky and earth seemed to widen too.

“I heard…… that this is probably going to become the world’s most legendary Ferris Wheel, right?”

“right ah. Staten Island isn’t like Manhattan or Brooklyn where they’re always within people’s vision, it was always silent, until this Ferris Wheel that can compete with the statue of liberty appeared, only then was it finally valued.”

Song Yi Ran turned his head slightly, Lin Ke Song looked at his profile, and could feel the anticipation he had towards his life and future.

His vision was very far, as far as the sky.

Song Yi Ran was like Staten Island in the Song family, always overlooked and ignored, but once he was given an opportunity, he will overlook everything else.

Even though she didn’t have much societal experience, she knew, that a man like Song Yi Ran, will succeed sooner or later.

“do you think that when Staten Island becomes a prosperous tourist attraction, you would still be by my side?” Song Yi Ran turned his face.

His eyes seemed frivolous like all the feelings were a moon in the water, but once you quietened your heart, you would be able to feel that trace of well-controlled persistence.

If it were before, Lin Ke Song would answer him affirmatively: I will.

But now, she had Jiang Qian Fan.

She was attached to that man’s warmth, his arms, and even his unchanging expression.

He let her be firm.

So, she will not reply Song Yi Ran.

“I will not marry Chu Ting. I have always wanted to prove my reason for being in the Song Family, and to prove this, I have sacrificed so much. But my wedding…… is out of the question.”

When she looked into Song Yi Ran’s eyes and saw her reflection, she suddenly had an unrealistic guess.

Like Song Yi Ran had always left his ordinariness for her. He could have a following with money and treated life as a game, but at the end of the ends, he had never forgotten to return to her side, accompany her to eat at the street food stalls, visit the markets, watch movies, do the most common things.

She suddenly realised, he had done all the things that boyfriends did for their girlfriends, apart from kissing.

“I actually really hope that you wouldn’t sacrifice your wedding. Remember when we were back home, Chu Ting called me, then I ranted at her about you not liking girls who wore high heels and miniskirts and all that?” Lin Ke Song asked smiling.

“Of course I remember.”

“every girl has the right to receive happiness, it’s so for me, and for Chu Ting too. When a girl becomes serious with you, you will break up with her. On the contrary, those who wish to only live an extravagant life with you, you receive them with open arms. You couldn’t afford Chu Ting’s sincere heart, so I helped you that day, and also helped myself. I didn’t wish for your happiness to be used to prove the meaning of your existence. Yi Ran, did you know that to know that the one you love loves you back is such a wonderful thing?” Lin Ke Song asked with a tilt of her head.

“Sounds like you’ve fallen for someone?” Song Yi Ran asked.

“Yeah ah.”

“Is it Jiang Qian Fan?” Song Yi Ran’s gaze departed from Lin Ke Song, focusing on the structure of the Ferris wheel.

“En.”

There was never anything that they couldn’t talk about between Song Yi Ran and herself. She had never wished to keep any secret from him. It was like so before, it is so now, and it will be so in the future.

“You’ve only known him for 3 months.” Song Yi Ran was still staring far away, like he was in a fugue.

“To be accurate, it’s half a year. I’d already met him back home. But…… there’s no connection between loving someone and time. May it be half a year, or 10 years, it is a feeling. You too will have it.”

“I’ve always had it.” Song Yi Ran jumped from the front cover of the car, and returned to the front car door, “Let’s go ba, I’ll send you back.”

“going back just like that? Didn’t you have something to discuss with me? Or was it only Chu Ting’s issue?” Lin Ke Song tilted her head, wanting to see Song Yi Ran’s expression clearly.

But the other party seemed to retract on purpose, always letting her see the side profile.

“My friend and I invested in a small restaurant, after the competition is over, wanna come over to work in the back kitchen?”

“You mean as a chef?”

“Yeah ah, you can be the head chef ah.” Song Yi Ran’s voice was calm like it was about to melt in the wind.

“I worry that your restaurant will fall.” Lin Ke Song said so but had a hopeful heart.

“just you, will not make me bankrupt.” Song Yi Ran reached out a hand and rubbed Lin Ke Song’s hair, “the next time I’ll bring you to see my restaurant.”

“Great ah!” Lin Ke Song munched the fried chicken.

She was really hungry.

On the way back, Song Yi Ran focused on driving, and didn’t even say a sentence of a joke.

The sunlight was a little glaring, Lin Ke Song who had food and drink was starting to get drowsy again. She tilted her face, trying to avoid the afternoon sun.

Song Yi Ran retrieved an eye mask, and threw it to Lin Ke Song, “Sleep ba, pig!”

Lin Ke Song happily put on the eye mask, got to a comfortable position, “Since I’m a pig, of course after I eat I gotta sleep la!”

The car moved forward continuously, Lin Ke Song snored slightly.

Song Yi Ran’s speed slowed gradually, finally stopping at the roadside.

Both his hand clutched the steering wheel tightly, slightly lowering his head, hot tears drip dropped, and slid down, unable to dry, leaving dots of imprints.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

46 thoughts on “The heartbeat at the tip of the tongue (舌尖上的心跳) Chapter 58

  1. Aww, poor SYR…. i guess you and LKS just weren’t meant to be. That, and uh, JQF is just way too smooth. He just slides in all MJ style and bam! There goes your girl lol.
    On another note, Iris is a beeyatch. Period. She and little Vicky can go sink in a ditch somewhere.

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  2. So sad for yi ran, he hold back for so many years but eventually lost her.
    He can actually told her to wait for him or declare or confess something, but he never did it. And that makes him loss the opportunity.

    Well its not that I’m in his ship, always in JQF’s ship. Opportunity comes to whom pursue it, and in this case JQF won.

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    1. If he did not have the courage to tell her he loves her, what right does he have to keep her tfor himself? Poor SYR indeed. For LKS, i don’t think I can endure for 10 years, she probably thought that SYR did not have any feelings for her based on his actions. Sadly, you can’t help it if you love someone, it’s just how it is.

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      1. Yea and I had thought about it. No matter how legitimate his reasons might have been, that doesn’t make the things he did and way he treated her any less damaging to her heart and self esteem. Think about it like this: he liked her but wouldn’t/couldn’t confess, he didn’t want people to know he cared about her so he acted scummy, dated many girls, and treated her like a doormat, an errand boy. And in order to keep her from dating anyone, he ruined her self esteem by regularly insulting her femininity and identity, saying she looked like a man and making her feel like their relationship was not worthy of being shared with his other friends. And at the same time, he would flirt with her but then say it was a joke, causing her to think that if anyone actually confessed to her, they would just be messing with her. Whether it was conscious or not, he manipulated her to keep her locked up as his little pet, never being confident or satisfied with her own situation. If you love someone, you would never want that for them.

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  3. *bawls eyes* friendzoned? NO. This is clearly much more painful. Its the ” the one who got away” zoned.

    They were on the same ship, on the same page for 10 years! 10 whole years!!! Oh god this just crushed my heart then grinded onions on my eyes. 😭😭😭

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    1. Yes…exactly… What a pity. Being dishonest and have no confidence are always the cause of failure.
      The regretful thing is because they were actually on the same ship, it’s just that both of them prefer to hide in their own room and have no courage to go on the deck and enjoy the seabreeze. Otherwise they would have been able to be enjoying the sun together happily.
      They are happy together, mess around… what they have is still something special and irreplaceable.
      But yeah… Love and business are very alike, one doesn’t only need a good stuff, but also need a correct timing and circumstance, both has something to do with luck.
      JQF didn’t gain his maturity and success in few months or a year only either. It took him 8 years to fulfill his dream, but atleast he has reliable people around him.
      SYR took 10 years, but unfortunately…when he nearly success… his girl has met another one who is already matured and could shelter her without any scrupples.
      SYR has no luck.
      But considering this bad fate between them, I would still see that it is not only SYR to be blamed. Both are not honest with their feeling.
      Im coming from a poor family growing up in a village too, a country bumpkin…
      But if I were her, I would never hide my feeling and just take the risk to confess.
      Better to ask and brokenheart than being in question for years suffering silently.
      Well, considering the social gap, with or without confession you will lose him to any rich girl anyway right, so why not just confess?
      At least one can prepare one self to move on asap, cut off the pain asap.
      No one could foresee that a man like JQF would appear, right? So, until when she would suffer silently like that?
      So, to act like LKS was still a stupid decision in my eyes.

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  4. I have to say that I feel sorry for SYR, but I also give him a big high five as he had a big heart as he did not tell LKS that he wanted her to be with him once he found that she already fell in love with JQF. Thanks for the update!

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    1. It’s a gesture or offer of peace or truce. In this context it basically means something like an enemy of my enemy is my friend, so we should postpone our rivalry and join together to get rid of party A before we go at it again. Sorry, I hope you can understand this. Some times it takes a novel for me to be happy with my clarifications.

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  5. Unsaid word, just at a tip of tongue. Real feelings, hidden from your eyes. A far away, not like the distance you and me. That your eyes see and don’t see.

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  6. An olive branch is traditionally regarded as a symbol of peace. I believe it refers to the biblical story of Noah’s Arc.
    In this case I think the Quentin family and mayor are asking the Song family for an alliance.

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  7. I feel so sad for SYR who waited so long due to limitations… but he was the one who left her hanging for such a long time without any promise or hope. And maybe its just because JQF is too smooth and had great timing that he was able to slip into her heart. Although it’s unfortunate for SYR, I still love the current ship better
    Thank you for the chapter!!!

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  8. No matter how I don’t like SYR playful ways whenever he was around LKS, instead of, expressing his true feeling for her…in his own way he pushed LKS to JQF without realising until it too late. In saying that nonetheless, I still feel sorry for SYR.

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  9. From the Iris scene to the Ferris wheel scene–a chapter full of drama! It’s taken SYR a long time to find his footing and figure out what he really wants. It’s painful to realize what we want when it’s too late to have it. Poor guy. But yay for LKS and JQF!! They’ve both been through a lot, too, and are moving forward together!

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  10. Song Yi Ran is a good guy, feel bad for him. Been planning for 10 years, unable to date his crush due to his family, planning everything so he could eventually break free and be with her but now… Still, I think Ke Song and Jiang Qian Fan match.

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  11. *sniff* T…this is so bittersweet… Ahh~ SRY, I feel for you, ten years of unspoken feelings only to be crushed sooner or later… Please find your love as quickly as LKS did. Best of luck 😥😢

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  12. I love this author. He/She makes such sympathetic antagonists. Well, at least among the male characters. I love when guys cry and show their humanity in stories. Now if we can get some depth to Iris and Chu Ting’s characters, I’ll be pleased as punch.

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  13. I feel so sad for song Yi ran 😔
    But on another note now that Lin ke song’s out of the picture….what do you think about me hmmm song to ran?*wiggles eyebrows*😉
    Thanks for the amazing translation 😘

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  14. Awww, i can’t help but cry for Song Yi Ran. He has waited for so long, and lost the opportunity. I cant imagine how much it hurts for him. The thing is, what held him back was his family, it was not entirely his fault, but also partially is still his. I wish he had told about his situation to LKS earlier on. Dont get me wrong, I love JQF too, he’s a wonderful guy. I just want both of them to be happy, they both deserve it.

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  15. I personally feel that even if they were on the same ship for 10 years. Watching the one you love be with other girls is heartbreaking she went through that even if they didn’t have the bf gf relationship it hurts. Apart from feeling sorry for him you will realise that SRY is manipulative even if he truly loved her. In that relationship for 10 years she got a lot more heartbreak than she asked for and SRY knew she liked him he gave her enough to hold on and not leave. In her situation the relationship with Jiang is lot more healthy and positive than her relationship with SRY could ever be. She made the right decision

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    1. This is what I feel too. I feel sorry for him now but really, 80% is his fault. I know that he had to be frivolous to show to his family he wasn’t a threat but there were times in the start of the novel where he shows off these exploits to LKS too much when he could have just left these things away from her. He was there for her but all he could ever make LKS feel in terms of her feelings is sadness and inferiority. And that’s just sad, man. Some fault also lies with LKS. She didn’t have the courage. But you can’t really blame her especially with the way SYR treated her as a bro. But if she did felt his feelings, I doubt she’ll make a move. She knows that SYR is trying his hardest to gain the upper hand in his family’s business and that’s why she’d rather hide her feelings instead of troubling him. It takes courage to make a move.

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      1. “ But if she did felt his feelings, I doubt she’ll make a move.”

        But remember, LSK have mentioned in the previous chapter, after the banquet scene, she would be brave to fight for SYR or face hurdles with SYR if he has given her any indication of his feelings to her. For 10 years, LSK has felt exclusion and inferiority from SYR and his inner circle. Yes, SYR is with her on their own time, but acting frivolous in front of her for 10 years could clearly make any girl misunderstand.

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  16. I haven’t finished the chapter yet but I had to comment. IRIS IS SO F****** SHAMELESS!!!!!! They are the ones cheati
    Ng and they have the nerve to insult LKS!!!! SAY WHAT GURL, ARE U BLIND? ARE U STUPID? Do you even know what real talent is? Shame on you. I wish your tongue gets cut off. Pei! Spits on your face. That’s how much you’ve aggravated me.

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  17. I bawled when SYR started crying. Urrrghhh why did the author made the second ML so pitiful. Their circumstances broke my heart. In this life, timing curbs one’s life. FML. I’m so sad. T_T I like our main lead but this is so bittersweet. It’s a feeling where you are filled with air and you can’t exhale it out. That’s what their silence and secrecy makes me feel. Isn’t so sad that LSK and SYR will never know the truth that they liked each other for so long?

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  18. Ah poor song yi ran, I doesn’t matter how something seems like it’s already at your hands, there’s some things that just aren’t meant to be. And also I’m happy that the author didn’t made him a hateful person for plot convenience

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  19. I cried in every single moment of her suffer about the feelings she has for him, I cried during the moments she is growing up and find passion, I cried when she finally open her heart for a new love… But I didn’t cry for SYR. He deserves that. He destroyed her. The only good thing he made for HER was not to confess.

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  20. HOIIII IM CRYING FOR YI RAN! Damn, I can feel how painful it was to hear the person you love say that they have fallen in love with someone else. 💔 Tho this was bound to happen sooner or later because Ke Song’s heart had been exposed to the kind of love that is free and brave, something that both she and SYR don’t have for the last 10 years. Shiz, I hope Yi Ran will also found a love that will make him brave!

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